Mistrust Part I - "Jack"

Jack

Jack Holden came from a meeting with fans in Midtown New York, 36th Street. He felt extremely relieved after that. He reflected on June. 5 months ago she left him, because she could no more stand that stalking of his crazy fans. One of these girls followed her everywhere she went an threw things after her. Once she got hurt on her left arm. Thanks god there was a guard on the parking space so the weird girl got caught. 

But it was too much for June. Since the beginning of their relationship, Jack and she were in distress. They both received dreadful and scary letters. And although all these attackes ended, when that certain girl - Vivian? - was caught, something had died in their love. Jack decided he would never ever go to a "meet & greet" or any other fanbases. But after a while he thought it over and felt that he has very nice fans, also. Even though it was hard for him - an it still is - meeting fans in the public. He is always a little concerned when too many people are around him. 

Now, After five months, Jack was able to think about June in a peaceful way. Of course, he never felt anger about her decision, but he felt a big loss in his heart. Now that feeling changed somehow. He began to think more clearly about his relationship with June. Something seemed to tell him, that is had to come that way. In fact, it should have ended softer, but he had the surety that this relationship had to end one day. Jack thought about his former relationships and had to get to the point... that he never ever felt what all the poems he ever read told him about love. He loves lovestorys and poems. And he always wanted to write some by himself, but... because he never felt those deep feelings, he failed.

Surely he loved June. And... yes... he loved all the women he was in a relationship with before, but... it never felt right. At times he thought that these feelings are just an illusion. But then he met an old friend, Taylor Jensen, who told him about „his girl“. Taylor never was a man who seemed to have any nameable emotions. And now his mind seemed to have changed completely. After that, Jack began to think about his own emotions and he feared, that he would never be able to love someone that deeply. That was a sad and somehow alarming feeling. 

The Taxi stopped in front of the Plaza Hotel and Jack came back to reality. He paid the driver and went into the hotel.